i ♥ M miss V♥

15012012

2012-01-15T01:31:00.000+08:00

❤how long will this takes? 

They say it takes time to heal a broken heart. i wonder how much time?

I thought i m so over this,

when i heard news about you, my heart skipped a beat... stating the obvious much? 

I've promised myself...

i wouldn't let this upset me again, i needed to stick to the realization i had past few weeks, worse things happen to people all the time and they cope with it. him and me breaking up wasn't a tragedy. It was just something unfortunate but it was part of life. Heartbreak was something you got over in time, i juz prayed that i could get over him quickly because this pain was almost unbearable.

Babysteps of her bracing journey ❤ 8

2012-01-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

❤ 2/1/2012

Its the last appointment for pre-bracing!!

There are now 4 separators on my lower jaw around my 1st molars. Separators really suck don't they?

It does pain the ass out of me, and yea, another week without solid food!!! and tell me, why is the weight not dropping? This is not a fair deal you noe? if you can't eat, means you dropped weight!! there shouldn't be you can't eat and you still maintain your weight!! STUPID FATS AND OILS, get out of me FOR GOOD!!! wth

❤ 4 separators placed on the lower jaw - CHECKED

Vivian Chin and her 2011

2012-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

❤ to sum up being a more grown up girl

i've changed alot throughout 2011, good or bad, not me to judge. Lets just say the world changes us, we adapt and survive not? Like last year *here*, i've sum up what i've been doing and feeling for 2011.  

❤January❤

Quite a month to start with, first month of sem 6, still fooling around with friends not having the motivation yet and ITS Chinese New Year month, so yea, been having real fun with cousins and friends. At the end of the month, due to unforeseen circumstances, i got into a relationship with Mr. Z.

 ❤The red tradition of CNY celebration at B-28-01❤
 Photo credited to marcusC

❤February❤

Its a short month with only 28 days. Still not in mood of studying yet, that can be fatal!! i ended the relationship FOR GOOD, cried for few days and get better relatively fast. Guess it wasn't that hurt afterall, its just a few weeks thingy. February ended good.
 ❤the dodge ball event of BP108❤
photo credited to marcusC

 ❤say hi to BabyC ❤ 

 ❤Light photography❤

 ❤My bestest best friend of whole wide world❤

❤March❤

Test, assignments, reports and notes came rushing my face, guess i dealt with it pretty good seeing i m still alive today :) We started all over again, bck into relationship with Mr. Z. March oh march, you are the happiest month of 2011 yet the saddest month of 2011... Been riding on an emotion roller coaster for the entire month, with ultimate laughter and unstoppable tears. But yet, i m glad i came across someone so special that brought me so much laughter.
❤Got myself an iphone❤

 ❤Maybe 1 day i'll find the courage to let go❤

❤April❤

IMU BALL '11 month, its the long awaited month for all my batch-mates i guess, with all the preparation for the past few months, it sounds a bit exaggerate as it took us few months, coz we take it as our graduation ball :) No matter how much effort you put in, how you tried your best, things aren't yours wouldn't be yours, so yea..i m back to my single status again. With Mr. Z i have to admit,there are lots of uncertain  emotions,but its all worth it. I do appreciate this relationship alot :). Things between us aren't right, but i never regret falling in love with you.  Till now, you are the one i love the most. *someone walked out, someone walked in, when i tot i couldn't have meet any more worse things in my life, i met Mr. X* 

 ❤Prom night at JW Marriot Hotel 2/4/2011❤
 
 ❤Mii Prom looks❤
 
 ❤i miss this cameron trip already❤

❤May❤

EOS 6 exam on the 2nd week of May. "me not an exam person" been tru this exam week pretty stressed up. Glad i have friends supporting me all the way. I passed my sem 6 and have slight improvement in the CGPA!! yay for me!! Went on an awesome getaway to Hatyai with the top siao kias from hometown. Really glad we had that trip, tho we spent all our money and in deep financial crisis till we need to borrow from my dad's friend. LOL!! welcome to my silly life :)*FYI, the dad never get over this issue till now, oh, give me a break daddy * 

 ❤The total nerves rocking hatyai trip❤

 ❤Very proud to present my bunch of crazy friends❤

❤June❤

June is moi sem break month,slacking whole month long as usual. i had a few things listed up on the to-do-list, but i completed none of them..who cares anyway!! This is the month i had been anticipated since a year ago, coz i m gonna have my virgin experience of taking a flight *yes, laugh at me, i haven't been on a plane*!! Cambodia was the destination. The trip was awesome, i tried lots of new stuff. *pinky promise i m gonna blog about it soon, i noe its freaking overdue*. June ended good as Mr. X disappearance is suppose to be a good thing. 

 
 ❤The breathtaking Angkor wat❤

 ❤The cambodia trip's rangers❤

 ❤LOL, i put this coz i look kinda slim here!! WAHAHA❤

 ❤Shane tan, he looks like a cambodian just as much as i do❤

 ❤My favourite time in cambodia, the Quad bike ride❤

 ❤again, the best human being ever pop up in my life❤

 ❤I chewed piece of that thing down without puking, awesome am i not? *very proud* ❤

 ❤Tan tee yee, another cambodia trip mate❤

❤July❤
Final year of my pharmacy degree, imma sem 7 research student now. Its a happy happy month cause i have an awesome group of souls as my groupmates. Never know stucking in the lab in the middle of the night with a bunch of crazy friends can be so fun :). *Lesson learnt : looks can be very deceiving, characteristics can be fake 
 ❤They represent my best moment in IMU❤

 ❤Happy birthday beloved mummy chin❤

❤August❤
Things got pretty ugly this month, cried for a few times on my own stupidity and finally accepted the fact, THAT'S LIFE!! So glad i have 4 awesome-st friends who guide me through and tell me, take it as a life experience, you're stronger now :) The happiest part of this month is both my bbf are back to msia!! God is fair afterall :p 
 ❤My life-time, BBF!! what should i do without you :(❤
 ❤Stacy ng, remind me again why i need to use old photo?❤

❤September❤
LAB LAB LAB & LAB!! Moving on to the 2nd phase of my research which is doing cell culture, the happiest section of all. Because we had an awesome senior who guides us through all ups and downs without fail. Having a senior can be so good is a thing i realized despite my bad experience with my mentor bout years ago. Senior is the spices added to the awesome main ingredients which totally made my September unforgettable!! Who are them again?? my freaking awesome groupmates, definitely they are the first thing that comes in mind when i recall my IMU life, with the widest smile draw on my face!! 
 ❤hello senior, thanks alot for the guidance❤

 ❤My awesome research group-mates again :)❤

 ❤Arthur's day❤

❤October❤
Birthday month, imma october baby!! this month passed pretty fast, all the lab works, presentation and partime are working the ass off me. This is the month of the turning point, everything start backing on track, at least, its the first month of 2011 when i am back to not crying. I learnt something new, dwelling in sad emotions will never leads you any further, letting go will bring you further than you can ever expected!!  "Law of attraction" *happy thoughts gonna bring happy things* 

❤Working partime as Jacob PA❤

❤Sexy bitch, i miss you already❤

❤Meetu & Meetat❤


❤Awesome paint ball experience❤

❤November❤
I m totally happy now,things seem to fall back on track. Did i mentioned i started my braces treatment this month? its a mixed feelings towards it, been really anticipating it since forever (no nid to explain more due to my overbite and overcrowded teeth), but pre-bracing treatment can pain as hell FYI. This month draws an end to my sem7, which is my best sem ever in IMU. awwww, i m gonna miss all my sem 7 research groupmates so badly. :(

❤BP108 class T-shirt, super cool isn't it? ❤
Photo credited to Munfai 

 ❤i've got a picha with our 2011 prom king❤

❤The awesome food trip to Ipoh❤
 

 ❤I miss the fan shu dan so much :(❤

❤December❤
Festival month, December it is!! Hospital attachment is good in a hard way, it drained off all my festive mood. feeling kinda relieved, december is finally here, 2011 has been a tough year for me, a big huge step i've taken in my life. i've been hit with a lot of obstacles i've never expected coming and since then tears and pain have been haunting me throughout the year, at least until Oct. 

2011 WAS A HELL OF A YEAR 

My 2011 resolutions, talking about perseverance, which i totally failed in them :)
maintained my cGPA 3.5 and above. - CHECKED 
 be more decisive (being able to make decision is one of the criteria of being competent, vivian chin!!) - CHECKED 
learn photography - FAILED
Bring mummy for a Bali trip - FAILED *i m going this coming june without her tho, so much of being a good daugther* 
❤*i want you to know who i am*❤ - EPIC FAILED
reach a weight of 45kg - EPIC EPIC FAILED

I shall make more easy resolutions this year :P
graduate from IMU with a cGPA 3.5 and above
learn photography
reach a weight of 45kg
more travelling
Grant mummy a trip to Canada
Best of luck in 2012, screw you end of the world, that will never dime the spirits of happiness, not even a tiny winy bit :)

cheers to the ending of 2011

2011-12-31T19:43:00.000+08:00

❤ bye, DU-O-ONE-ONE

2011 has been a tough year for me and i m just glad to have made it through the year. Thinking back of it, everything seems to be pretty hazy and all i could remember is tears and more tears. Well, i am really glad that 2011 is coming to a full stop in a couple of hours. A new year means a brand new start of everything :) so lets welcome 2012. 


These are my hopes and wishes for the year ahead:
more smiles, less tears
graduate from IMU
traveling around
expanding my social networks
spending more time with the (Y) chromosomes
oh plz god!! get me posted in my hometown GH
I cant be sure that 2012 is any better than 2011, but hell yea, its LOA i m talking about!! it will be an awesome ride for 2012.  
 

他

2011-12-20T11:09:00.000+08:00

❤

她问我 “为什么你总是放不下？ 还是那个他呢？”

因为当我说 “我很好” 的时候，只有他会告诉我

“你是认为我看不见你眼里的悲伤吗？” 

然后再抱着我说：“宝贝，告诉我什么事好吗？” 

也许以后会遇到那样的一个人， 可是在这22年来， 就只有他了 ：）

Babysteps of her bracing journey ❤ 7

2011-12-18T00:13:00.000+08:00

❤ 18/12/2011

Yay, i've completed all my extractions now!!! Extracted the left side upper and lower 1st premolars this morning.

I did the extraction in the dental clinic here in kulim itself. It is kinda inconvenient to go all the way to SP just for the extraction, so i asked for the refer letter so that i can do somewhere else which is convenient for me.

This dentist actually told me not to gargle within 24 hours after the extraction and avoid all hot food. *jeez, Y U NO tell me this earlier?* no wonder that extraction done 1 week ago still pain the ass out of me!! i totally cause the clot to dislodge wei..wth!!

So the extractions were harder than the previous one, the dentist is a female dentist and i guess she got not enough strength to extract my teeth with just one pull. So she did a few pulling and it does seems kinda pain? i used the word SEEMS coz i cant really feel the pain with the LA acting, but hell yea, she pulled a few times and still couldn't manage to pull off one tooth..

The pain started right after the extraction, i think that LA wear off a bit too fast not? so i popped in 1 tab of ponstan immediately, pain is just not my thing. But this extraction healed pretty fast, now i blame it all to my gargling... coz the extraction site totally felt no pain after i popped in the pain killer and the pain just never came back. i can take solid food on that night itself. pretty awesome huh?

❤ Left side upper and lower 1st premolars extraction - CHECKED

Just another fun Friday

2011-12-17T16:36:00.000+08:00

❤ TGIF 

For the first time in my life, i truly experience and understand the meaning of TGIF!!

cheers for friday plz people!!!

Life in hospital sucks!! okay, apart from i really get to learn alot of clinical settings where i can't experience in UNI..and the attachment really reminds me how badly i need to study back my systems and meds!! BUT, life in hospital still sucks!!

enuf of hospital!! its friday night out with the hospital peers :)

We were suppose to go for the awesome thai food, khunthai, but because i m having my pre-bracing period, which pains me kao kao!! i cant really take those food!! how awesome and considerate they are choose not to go there :)

We went Betty's midwest kitchen instead, they said the mash potato is awesome and i can take the dogfood, as the fries are soaked in the country gravy, which makes them soft and eatable for me!! *awww, i miss it now* 

here's are some food photos 

 ❤DOGFOOD ❤

this is the awesome dog food, with fries covered with their homemade country gravy and coated up with cheese and baked.. no way can these awesome combinations end up wrong? The name might sounds a bit wrong, but i assure you, this really worth a try :) 

The following foods are TEMPORARY out of my league!! yes, read me!! temporary!! *curse the bracing* 

 ❤MEATLOAF❤

*sorry!! my bad!! haven't been posting up photos lately!! who to blame? my life is so boring and dull i dont have photos to share :( * 

We watched New Year's after the dinner...i love they movie so much...Zac Efron is freaking hawt!!!

but whats with the last part when zac kissed that old lady?? MAX TURN OFF!! tho that old lady is kinda cute but not in the zac-efron-should-kiss-her kinda way of cute.. 

p/s: that draws an end to my 2nd week of rotation moving on to the 3rd one next week..

p/s/s: aww, 2 more premolars extraction this coming sunday!!! me hate teeth extraction :( 

Paediatrics, 2nd week of attachment

2011-12-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

❤ 2nd week of hospital attachment.

i chose paediatrics as my selective,

cause i love kids so much, they are innocent, happy and adorable.

it makes me happy looking at them.

okay, this makes me sounds like a pedo!! no i m not, i just love kids..i think they are the best living creature on earth  ❤

so i thought i might have a chance seeing alot of kids around during my hospital attachment,

and damn!! yea, i got paediatrics as my selective but we weren't allowed to go for ward rounds in paediatrics..DAMN RITE??? 

so yea, for the 2nd week, i m doing my rotation in paed!!

this week was rather free as we were only given 2 cases to work on the PCP which is lesser work!!

cheers to lesser work!! who don't love lesser work???

p/s: i got 2 of my premolars extracted last Sunday, another 2 this coming Sunday. 

p/s/s: getting more and more used to the TPA now :)

121211

2011-12-12T18:41:00.000+08:00

❤i need motivation to move further

Life's hectic now, barely have the time to leave blank..(ohya, i always lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling leaving my mind blank...waste of time i noe, but thats a very bad habit of mine which i dont feel like kicking it off)

Everything in life is in a very fast pace, i dont quite like it...

Hospital attachment from 8 to 5

clerk clerk clerk case

forever never ending PCP

reflective diaries 

and

getting our ass kick nearly everyday by the preceptor 

ARE NO FUN!!!

TELL ME!!! CAN LIFE GET ANY BUSIER??

worst of all, I CAN'T EAT...I CAN'T TAKE IN ANY FOOD, the TPA in my mouth is like a checkpoint, IT BLOCKS EVERYTHING GOING INTO MY THROAT!! wth!! Pre-bracing period juz suck kao kao!!! enuf of congee and oat!!! i need some solid food wei :(((( 

Babysteps of her bracing journey ❤ 6

2011-12-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

❤ 11/12/2011

So i lost another 2kg. can you imagine i dont have any proper meal for freaking 4 weeks dy?

This morning i got my TPA, so its actually something known as trans-palate arch. There were 2 metal frames around both my 1st molars and a bridge arch connecting both of the metal frame.

Totally have no idea the purpose of that TPA putting there, except for the fact that it is really really annoying and irritating!! It blocks everything, I MEAN EVERYTHING going into my throat when i m swallowing. All the tiny pieces of food stuck between my palate and that arch or it just hang there and couldn't go down my throat!! RAWR

I did my right side upper and lower 1st premolars extraction today. So here is me vivian chin, performing her all-life-long-never-fail-to-embarrass-herself-stunt again.

Here goes the story, i m suppose to get my extraction done in any other dental clinic, the orthodontic clinic is not responsible in extracting any of my teeth. The dental nurse asked me to complete my extraction of 4 1st premolars and call back to the orthodontic clinic to make my next appointment.

Tell me about it, i have been waited for how many years to get my braces done and i couldn't wait any longer. So i asked the dentist nurse whether i can get my extraction done by today? She said she can try asking a favour from one of the dentists to see whether he is willing to help me for my extraction. *woops!! did i mentioned he is cute? like totally!!*

very clever and impatient of me, i asked him to do 2 premolars at one go. Right after the extraction, i felt so dizzy and things around started to spin!! oops oops, its me going to faint again!! Why can't i just stop embarrassing myself for once?? As usual, i freaked out all the dental nurses and dentists in that room and they have to give me glucose water immediately. *this sounds so familiar coz the exact same thing happened when i first donated my blood few years back*

That cute dentist kinda did a good job, i felt no pain at all, so teeth extraction wasn't so bad after all!! But the after effect kinda sucks, i think i gargled too much after the extraction and kinda dislodge the clot which cause the pain of extraction site lasted about 1 week. *jeez, Y U NO tell me i m not suppose to gargle my mouth within 24 hours of extraction?*

❤ TPA placed on my upper jaw - CHECKED
❤ Right side upper and lower 1st premolars extraction - CHECKED

it marked the start of moi DEC

2011-12-10T16:35:00.001+08:00

❤ First week of hospital attachment ended FOR GOOD

Still can't believe i m in Sem 8 now,

i remembered vividly how i envy my senior when they got into hospital attachment when i was in sem 2, i was thinking back then.. how i wish i m in sem 8 right now..then i ll be graduating soon..

TIME FLIES, in a blink of eyes, i m in Sem 8 now..

tho there are lots of uncountable efforts and tears poured into the past 4 years..

okay, enuf of blabbing!!

First week in endo/renal department went well i suppose, PCPs were managed to complete in time.

Reflective diaries suck btw!! IDK what to write in it!!

Learnt quite alot of new things and gained quite alot of knowledge, i found out that if people are picking on you, it actually helps you learn more..

so GOOD or BAD, SUCK IT UP!!

7 weeks to go..wish me luck!!

seriously i miss sleeping at 10pm, sleep deprive wei :((((

Babysteps of her bracing journey ❤ 5

2011-12-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

❤ 4/12/2011

jeez, done another impression this morning. That bubble gum kinda thing still smell kinda same to me, same kinda AWFUL!!
This impression is only to get the mold of my upper jaw so that they can prepare me the TPA, still have no idea what is that anyway :S

After the impression, the dentist placed back 2 new pairs of separators into my mouth...so congratulations vivian chin, another week with NO SOLID FOOD!! :(

till now, ever since the pre-bracing started, i have yet to enjoy any solid food!! read me, its SOLID food, not GOOD food!! so never ever mentioned NICE food to me..wth is that?

❤ Impression of TPA - checked

New blogskin

2011-12-04T21:17:00.001+08:00

❤ yippie!! 

seriously need something to motivate the blogging mood,

i blame the blog template (nah,gotntgelsetoblameformylaziness)

tadah, i've changed it now :) 

sidebar is still very messy, but i m very lazy to arrange them right now..

My teeth pain like hell, i cant even close up my jaw properly not to mention chewing food!!

record on the go: 12 hours+ without solid food dy :(

p/s: its the 1st day of hospital attachment 2moro *ganjeong-ing*

p/s/s: i realized i have zero knowledge on endo/renal except for DM is actually under endo, WTH!! *vivianchin, you realize you graduating soon ar?* 

❤ december

2011-12-01T10:37:00.001+08:00

❤ First day of december

i. want. to. complain. arghhhh.

i had the separators inserted into my teeth,

and its killing me, the pain when i bite and i cant eat solid food..

nooooo, i dont wanna say hi to braces food yet!!! not so soon..

i haven't even got my extraction done :(

December is suppose to be a happy month, braces and separators are fun sucker!!

Babysteps of her bracing journey ❤ 4

2011-11-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

❤ 30/11/2011

Meeting up with the orthodontic for the treatment plan today. So here's the plan she told me. Do you want the idea plan or you wan the faster plan?

oooohhhh!!! i have decision making difficulty syndrome (DMDS) seriously, i cant decide one which to go!! But i guess preserving my canine would be a wiser choice, so yea i go for the ideal plan which is 1 year longer than the other plan!! who cares?? i m going to have my perfectly straighten teeth for the rest of my life :P

4 separators were placed on my upper jaw around my 1st molar, she said i m getting a TPA. What is that anyway? RAWR

❤ Treatment plan[ideal plan - removing 4 premolars] - checked
❤ 4 separators on upper jaw - checked

30112011

2011-11-30T22:17:00.001+08:00

❤ Its december again :)

Today draws an end to sem 7.

The moment i printed out my dissert, i almost felt i lost 10kg of mental weight!!

Imagine the stress imu is giving..

Woohoo!! Moving on to the final sem!!

Despite all the bad stories about the complete fun sucking Hospital attachment,

i stil kinda anticipating it :) 
Who knows? every single day is a new chapter in life.. 
I need the monotony life the attachment gonna stuck me in in order to discipline myself! 
 
Now, enjoy the 5 days left!! 
 
With joy i await for the 4th week of december :)

Babysteps of her bracing journey ❤ 3

2011-11-23T23:05:00.000+08:00

❤ 23/11/2011

So the dental nurse actually forgot to ask me to go for the x-ray in the nearby GH. ish, can you be more forgetful? need a 2nd trip back to SP, thats kinda far tho.

They took the x-ray of my jaw with bunch of aimst medical student there...jeez, why do i feel like animal in the cage? did i mentioned i knocked my incisors towards the tiny plastic tube i m suppose to bite it during the x-ray?? talking about embarrassment!!

❤ X- ray - checked

Babysteps of her bracing journey ❤ 2

2011-11-22T22:16:00.000+08:00

❤ 22/11/2011

Got the impression of my teeth done!! That thing tasted like bubble gum, the gross kinda bubble gum...ewww!!
 
That pretty dentist placed a metal plate into my mouth to get the appropriate size of plate which fits all my teeth in order to get an impression of teeth

Tell me about having a small mouth and small jaw with overcrowded 32 teeth!! That sucks big time. 

She hardly forced a M size plate through my mouth and it still cant fit all my teeth!!! jeez, that plate nearly tear the corner of my mouth!! Tell me abit having 32 teeth, i so gonna need a L size plate!!

ouch ouch ouch!!! finally the impression is done :)

❤ impression of teeth - checked

Piece of you

2011-11-21T11:19:00.000+08:00

❤ I've decided to bring a piece of you together with me along my journey of life

Life feels kinda good right now, everything seems to fall right into place.

I've decided to love you in all ways, forcing myself to let go isn't doing any good.

Loving you isn't a wrong decision either, it makes me stronger in all ways.

When i got a call from you yesterday, the dopamine and endorphin danced in my brain

And i realized you never leave my heart nor brain

You are the one i love and miss the most ❤

Babysteps of her bracing journey ❤ 1

2011-11-14T21:42:00.000+08:00

❤ 14/11/2011

Couldn't be more happy, mummy called me few days ago telling me that i got the letter from government's dental clinic..

life can be so beautiful sometimes, when i had just made up my mind to for my braces in private which will cost me around 6k, i got this offer letter from the government. Its freaking 700 bucks only, do the math ppl!! 

gee!! its so long that i've forgotten i actually signed up for the braces in government dental clinic. 

So here's the first day of my dental appointment..

Got my dental check up done and scaling too..That pretty dentist does has her skills, scaling wasn't so horrible after all. 

❤ scaling and dental check up - checked

我最亲爱的

2011-11-04T14:19:00.000+08:00

❤ 向前走需要的勇气比我想象中大太多了。。。

一直告诉我自己那是过去了，是时候放手了。

也有一段时间没有哭了，还以为自己已放下了。

昨晚看见你的照片，才发现原来我还是好想念你。

1.11.11

2011-11-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

❤ 1 and only

On this special date 1.11.11,

at 11.11am,

we had our sem 7 research findings presentation together

at 11.11pm,

we had our post presentation celebration together

They are my sem 7 research groupmates,

They are the best part of my IMU life,

They will be the most memorable part of my 4 years uni life.

With lots of ❤,

vivian

31102011

2011-10-31T22:21:00.001+08:00

❤ this marks the end of October

I am an october baby, used to be very excited whenever it comes to october. i guess its the sign of aging, i m no longer anticipating my birthday. Its just another day, no?

The new thing i picked up recently, the law of attraction!! gonna have happy thoughts to have happy things happening on me :D
*happy thoughts happy thoughts flood my tiny brain plz*

oops!! why am i blogging here? its my research findings final presentation 2moro!! damn!! wish me luck wish me luck :P

till then,
LOVES

i thought october is better

2011-10-21T21:43:00.002+08:00

❤ it happened again

i thought we were friends, at least i take you as a friend whom i can trust..

This isn't the first time the same thing happened, you broke the friend ethics over and over again..

Maybe i m not a friend to you, that is why you can be guilt free. 

i wonder why i cried when i found out, 

isit because i m too angry? 

or i m just too disappointed in you? 

sometimes it isn't about the issue, its about the TRUST </3

that song still reminds me of you, but the meaning behind faded, i guess

20102011

2011-10-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

❤

The author got her attachment in Hospital Putrajaya

NOT SEREMBAN!!

ultra happy can

10102011

2011-10-10T00:44:00.001+08:00

Scientists say, CHANGES is the only constant on earth.

Tell me about it, i do not like changes, i find it hard to adapt to

somehow, i think i started falling in love with this changes :) 

say hello to a newer me? 

Ze OCT

2011-10-07T21:41:00.000+08:00

❤ for 2011, its a different OCT

Lab work is putting a toll on me!! with tonnes of late night lab works that makes me drop dead right after i reach home...but its good, at least i am now focusing hard on my work and studies. Negativity inside me is slowly fading!! Actually to be exact, it doesn't really exist anymore. I've found a correct way to be happy. I need to start focusing hard on my aims and dreams, that is where i m heading to :) 

Sept was fairly good. I believe October is gonna treat me well! 

06102011

2011-10-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

Letting go isn't about letting go of you
its about letting go the happiness and memories we had together
that's the hardest part </3

i promise, i ll distant myself

❤ Him

2011-09-15T21:24:00.001+08:00

❤ He makes life perfect

The relationship with him is the prettiest story that ever happened in my 22 years life. 
Though things happened between us weren't right, but I’ve never regretted knowing him nor getting into a relationship with him.
Remember how hard I fought those butterflies when I’m falling, those efforts drained off once I see his text
He has the most mature thinking with the most childish attitudes at times,
He taught me how to be a better person in terms of relationship, how to be more decisive. That’s the most important lesson I picked up along the journey with him holding my hands. 
Being in a relationship with him, I’ve seen what I don’t get to see when we were friends, the cute side of him.
I couldn’t imagine such macho guy like him act coquettishly just to make me say "I love you"
Thinking back the happy moments of us never fail to draw a big smile on my face

He sees through my eyes,
He is the only one who can see the sadness in me even me myself never realized it.
He is passionate,
He always does his best in things he loves,
I can see the sparks in his eyes; hear the excitement in his voice when he talks about G, D and P.
He has unlimited stories to share, giving me no chance to talk, he shares almost everything 
Even so, I still love to just listen quietly to his stories.
Little does he knows, that’s the way I get in touch with the 22 years I missed in this man's life.

He is strong,
He is bold,
He is the kind of man I adore the most.
He has the most positive attitudes towards all the negativity that pours on him.
With all the bad experiences he had, he found the courage to live on with a smile and say hello to the future with anticipation. 

When I think about March all the beautiful times,
I remember how we used to talk in the car, the laughter I had sitting on the passenger side.
And how he gave me kisses when he is talking on the phone just because he thought I might feel ignored.
The way he wrapped his arms around me took away all my insecurity in this relationship.

As the saying goes, good things never last.
Eventually, we ended…for good.
Our memories inked on my head like a tattoo;
Our moments carved on my heart like a scar, a perfectly imperfect scar 

Now, things seems to be the same again,
Timing, place and people, but the feelings aren't the same no more..
The feelings of him towards me, despite me having the exact same feelings.

Thanks dear, 
Deep down, I will always want the best for you, do take care.
You, will always be the first and special someone in my heart

Forever and Always ❤

you are everywhere

2011-09-11T02:11:00.005+08:00

❤ its something i call missing you :)

i saw someone wearing a same shirt you have

i went to the mcD you brought me there, where we chat about almost everything..

just by looking at the place we seated lift up the edges of my lips

how i wish i could get a time machine and travel back to time

back to "MUCH"

miss you ❤

ze fake cover

2011-08-19T22:42:00.000+08:00

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move on

2011-08-19T09:05:00.000+08:00

I m so glad i have very awesome friends with me :) guess tat god is fair after all, so wat if i always bump into jerks all these while, i have awesome friends supporting me!!

Told a few friends bout it, and guess wat they all have the same reaction!! "vivian chin, u've been fooled" Isit i m too blinded or stupid? Why cant me see things clearer?

It took me quite a while to accept the fact tat i've been played not once but twice. So yea, i m done!! Enough of the crying over a jerk!! Learnt my lesson and move on!!

i miss not caring bout things

2011-08-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

❤ too much seems to hurt so much

Don't care too much,

Don't love too much,

Don't trust too much,

Coz that too much will hurt so much

i miss days when i don't give a damn bout things, when i don't care whats going on, when i just live my life, and most, nights when i don't cry myself to slip and morning when i don't wake up with a wet pillow :) 

i failed

2011-08-10T23:49:00.000+08:00

vivian chin, u r such a huge failure..
u failed to keep up ur 2 simple resolutions :(

u cried :(
u mentioned the name :(

make sure u keep up with them 2moro!! think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts, vivian chin!!

its not tat bad afterall

2011-08-10T02:27:00.001+08:00

❤ good or bad?

Things are not that bad after all, when i thought that i might need a whole long time of crying again, just like what i used to experience...but not this time, maybe its because i get used to it dy, or because i see this coming? 

Right before i entered sem 7, i told my bff, this sem will be better, i have awesome research groupmates and i found a friend who i can cry to if i ever need it. Things will be different, i wont be ranting that much.Out of my expectation, things get from worse to worst. I still have my awesome groupmates, just not the friend who i can cry to. 

i gave up, and tell myself...yea, all the bad things are going to happen on you, just take it...just laugh tru it :D its not like i can do anything to change it, i wanna be the happie happie vivian :)

then i realize, its not tat bad. At the end of the day, God did send me a small gift ❤ at least that puts a smile on my face :) 

平凡的快乐

2011-08-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

❤ 平凡的快乐还真是不简单

白痴的我，把密码锁的网站给弄丢了。。现在要写些不快乐的东西也锁不起来了：（
原来我没有想象中的乐观，我以为自己可以用笑容来带过，可是好像只是微笑说："我没事“ 也需要很大的力量。
每次都告诉自己，这又不是第一次了，都挺过来了，怎么这次还会那么伤心呢？怎么还是很痛呢？

i'm tired

2011-08-02T22:29:00.001+08:00

❤ i'm mentally and physically tired

It has been a hectic week, been staying in lab nearly 18 hours per day. it sounds tired rite, but its kinda fun tho, i mean, good for me..i m always in denial..when i m busy or when something is up occupying my time and mind, i always get to push my thoughts away and tell myself that, those can wait :) 

Everything seems to be in the wrong way, its all against my will, i know i cant be wanting everything to go as i want them to be, but somehow, i m so tired fighting against all odds.. i tried so hard, it doesn't seems to be enough i guess, seriously i need to learn that, something you don't have to fight hard to earn it, what is yours will be yours...

again, vivian chin, tell yourself:

"Take a deep breath and move along, everything will be just fine"

back to reality

2011-06-30T20:27:00.000+08:00

i miss home so much during the trip, i noe its a short one but still i miss home so much, but at the same time, i dun feel like coming back, its like when i m back here, i have all the bad things waiting for me, i need to face the music already.. bad feelings does strike me once in a while during the trip, somehow i still manage to
push the thoughts away by telling myself its none of my business anymore. For a few times, i had a very strong urge wanting to ask things clearly, but i promised myself i shall not give a damn anymore.. i will not leave myself regreting over stuff like this :)

dun get me wrong, its not tat the trip is not nice tat i miss home so badly, the trip is totally awesome, i tried like a million ultimate kind of stuff for the first time of my life :) tat is where my curiousity can lead me to... i will blog bout the details when i m done with all the photos, nearly 3k photos for a 5 days trip man!! the 3k photos is from my cam alone, not to mention we have 3 more cams with us :P

Sem 7 is starting, i really dun wanna go back IMU...dun ask me why i hate imu so much, i just do!! anyhow, its my final year, i will strive my best, do it for mumi and dadi, do it for me :)

IT MAYBE DIFFICULT, BUT IT IS POSSIBLE :)

i lift my hand and ....

2011-06-25T07:04:00.001+08:00

dear unicorns,

i feel so tired juz to be okay and have a smile on my face...
things just aren't running smoothly lately, it seems tat i have all the negative energy around me...
and worst, i feel played :(
plz take away all these and inject me with some positivity :)

glad tat i m goin trip with the ultimate happy souls on earth, i need to refresh my soul and mind so badly... maybe i juz need an escapade...

i promise i shall be a new soul after the trip and i will never give a damn on any stupid stuff anymore :)

i forgot my keys :(

2011-06-23T22:59:00.000+08:00

❤ yes, i am too free, that is why i wrote this

vivian 1: congratz vivian chin, you juz forgot your keys!! you got no access to your room and your important stuff you need to bring along to camby.

vivian 2: i knew it!! i knew i would forget something!! it feels like i left something behind this morning when i left my hse.

vivian 1: you still forgot you keys you dumb ass!!!

vivian 2: i double check all my checklist for stuff to bring to camby, and the room keys is not included in the stuff to bring to camby's checklist!!! that is why i forgot..

vivian 1: YES, YOU ARE STILL A BIG DUMB ASS, and now KJY has no place to stay because of you!! 

p/s: wei shen me na me bendan!!! suo shi oso can forget!!! stupid girl!!  

过去的让他过去吧

2011-06-15T14:31:00.000+08:00

❤ 有些事努力了还是不行就要放弃了

朋友，我好心痛看到你如此伤心

只能用文字安慰你，我不知还能做些什么。

听着那些歌不仅让我想起他，泪水又流下了。。

因为他带来的回忆与心痛，让我更了解你正在经历的一切。

这些哭着入睡，明早醒来眼眶里满是泪水的日子会过去的。

只要告诉自己，撑过去就好了：）

好想给你个拥抱，告诉你再怎么辛苦我们还是会有对方。

❤

What a wonderful phrase

2011-06-12T19:42:00.000+08:00

❤ it means no worries for the rest of your life

There is a reason I said I’d be happy alone. It wasn’t because I thought  I would be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and  then it fell apart, I might not make it. It’s easier to be alone.  Because what if you learn that you need love? And then you don’t have  it. What if you like it? And lean on it? What if you shape your life  around it? And then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of  pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It’s like dying. The only  difference is, death ends. This? It could go on forever … - G.A (Meredith Grey)

Get a life, you moron!!

2011-06-10T14:19:00.000+08:00

❤Dear moron,

Y U NO mind your own freaking business?

Stay out of my life FOR GOOD

i have HORNS and i BITE!! RAWR

Through my eyes

2011-06-09T20:11:00.001+08:00

❤ if only me seeing me

❤

rainbow has 7 colours

2011-06-08T12:13:00.000+08:00

❤ C.O.L.O.U.R.S

If you have made mistakes, 

there is always  another chance for you.

You may have a fresh start any moment you  choose,

for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, 

but  the staying down. 

- Mary Pickford

Random facts about mii

2011-06-07T18:43:00.000+08:00

❤ i m weird, but i am me

i m not pure chinese, mixed thai, that explains why i don't look like a chinese.
my favourite ice cream flavour is pistachio almond, but i take chocolate flavour all the time coz PA is not available most of the time :(
The only food i can't live without is POTATO.
I love to buy and collect earrings, but i don't really wear them.
I am the girl who will eat up all the cream and icing on the cake and leave the sponge cake behind.
I think whipping cream is the best food ever created :)

I will always rush for the swing at the park.
I love car ride,and i sleep best in the car, idk why!!

I laugh at everything like some crazy girl
I use LOL to start a sentence and to end a sentence, i use LOL for "laugh out loud" and i use LOL when i have nothing else to say.
When i am happy, i give myself an excuse to eat alot, when i m sad, i use it as an excuse to eat alot too = i gained weight when i m sad or happy =.=
I don't like changes, i always think the old ones are prettier and better
I talk to my mirror image when i need encouragement, and i smile to my mirror image when i happened to pass by a mirror
I have passion for photography cause photos never fail to lift up the edges of my lips.

Thoughts

2011-06-06T12:14:00.000+08:00

❤ back in action

hey guys!!sorry for the hiatus, suppose to update more frequently as i m having my sem break now, but i just don't feel like writing. I feel like things aren't sort out yet, and still wasn't in a right mind to express what i m thinking.. apart from the previous weeks worrying whether i will pass my sem 6 (fyi, i passed sem 6!! yay!!), i still have lots of things to think about... yea, i m kinda good at living in denial, previously when i was having my exam, i pushed all the thoughts aside, giving myself the excuse that i need to stay focus for my final.

Probably its now sem break, i have ntg to do basically slacking whole day round, so its time to face the music.. i took some time thinking about it, looking through some photos, and refreshing those memories, to my surprise, those memories aren't as pain as i thought they are. Previously, i told you i deleted all those messages, i lied. Finally, today!! i found the courage to format the phone..so yea, bye bye memories, bye bye to you

i m off with those dramas now, life's better and happier now!! at least, i didn't felt asleep with my phone in my hand waiting for anyone's reply anymore. i know this sounds irresponsible, but i sort of enjoy the carefree life, i can leave my phone at home when i go out, leaving them in silent mode and didn't bother bout it.

在这段算不上爱情的感情里，我学了不少，在你身上我学到了我一直都找不到的果断，你让我明白了如何做决定，如何向前看。。在一起的这段时间，我相信也感觉到，你是真心的，你是有努力的，或许这段感情来错时间了。。今天我终于找到了放下的勇气，收拾好我破碎的心情从新出发。也许已经不是第一次了，或许早已预到这样的结局，也或许我真的哭累了，明白了感情是可遇不可求的。过去的就让他去吧。。我曾经天真的想，如果结局是我想要的，我会开心吗？我才发现，原来我不会开心，只会让自己更累，我实在接受不了随时会欺骗我的男友，在你身上我找不到安全感，老是需要活在随时会失去你的惊慌下，那现在失去你就变成了件好事。。

stay tuned for upcoming hatyai trip's post

i could really use a wish right nao

2011-05-26T12:58:00.000+08:00

❤ me no like this coming friday :(

okay, its thursday dy, its friday 2moro, its the day of result-releasing-day, WTF!!! damn stress wei, and why the results have to be release around like 4pm?? even more stressful, you don't know we wake up in the morning kah? you dunno its gonna be damn torturing waiting for the death sentence kah?? okay fine!! obviously you duno!! 

This sem is even more torturing, coz i freaking go arrange a trip right after the results releasing date, yea yea!! if only i passed everything then i can go to the oh-so-heavenly-trip with the top siao kias and have fun like crazy!! but...but...but what if i fail?? *touch wood x so many times i lost count* seriously, the CTT paper is driving me crazy...

oh God, please let me pass this sem kay?? i promise i ll be a good girl and try to work harder for my coming semesters kay? 

p/s: i don't think i wan to wake up 2moro, just wake me up somehow 2 days after and tell me i passed my sem 6 dy!! i m gonna give you a big fat hug, nah!! is tat even possible?? 

p/s/s: okay,lets make a deal, if you let me pass my sem 6 EOS, which will need to take all my luck, i dont mind falling on my ass for like 3 times or what!! just give me all the luck i need to pass my sem 6 EOS!! AND YES!!! I M THAT DESPERATE :( 

you are part of my 123

2011-05-19T12:55:00.000+08:00

❤ 朋友，遇到你我好幸福哦

也许遇上错的人

也许爱得没天分

眼泪换来成长必修的 学分

怎么啦 多难过都会陪你一起撑过啊

那伤人的谎话 就忘了就算了

怎么啦 怎么啦 还在想着他

还爱他 嘲笑你不顾一切爱的有多傻

当计划输给了变化 
就代表他不是对的他

 ❤.❤.❤.❤

making me cry in the early morning isn't such a good idea tho,

still, you touches my heart,

thanks for being there all the time, but you are not here to go movies and shopping with me :(

but remember, make your choice and go with it, there or here, you have adrian and me :) love lots ❤

Hey, my fren

i dont remember since when we became so close,

i dont remember since when i started reporting every ups and downs,

i dont remember since when sharing my day with you is part of my daily chores,

hell yea, cause you are the best PARTNER IN CRIME

you know who you are 
XOXO❤

me wanna

2011-05-11T18:44:00.000+08:00

❤ things i cant wait to do

ohmeeeegwadd, vivian chin!! why are you blogging now??

okay, i duno, i just feel like blogging all of sudden,

me cant wait to finish this stupid EOS,

i wanna complete the mama's post

i wanna start my knitting class

i wanna start planning my cambodia trip (fyi,wehavenoplanbutaflighttickettoandfro)

i wanna start mapling

i wanna finish my novel

i wanna start shopping for my cambodia trip

ME CAN'T WAIT FOR THE THAILAND TRIP!!!!yippie, the thai girl show, die die oso must watch this time!! *mumi, dadi you cant stop me this time, i m not goin with y'all* woohoo!!

next monday, with joy i await!!

好累哦。。。

2011-05-11T09:01:00.000+08:00

好讨厌想念你的感觉，

我以为我不会再想你了，

也认为自己已经不在乎了，

可是在压力下快喘不过气的时候，

你的拥抱是我最想念的，

你的声音好像给我莫名的温暖

h3r love story

2011-05-04T20:05:00.003+08:00

❤ her story,

She is in UK and he is here in Msia 

she found herself a good guy or the good guy found her? they found each other and i m so glad for the both of them. Being a fren of hers, i got to know him..i have never felt that way for a guy before, i noe there are a trillion guys out there who is good as a bf in different ways. but the way he is, touches me (dontgetmewrong, imnotinlovewithhim) for what he can do for her...he brings the best out of her, he scolded her in a right way, supporting her in a right time..

After she is back to UK, everytime he goes to the shop they have been before, he will order her favourite food and eat it on behalf of her.isn't that sweet? (imsotouchedwheniheardthat,andtearsrolleddownmycheek )

She is so in love with him, her world collapses just by thinking she might be losing him...

i m sure the both of you will find the way out somehow, LDR is never easy, but for the path you had taken, and the length you had gone through, you guys will make it to the end together.

As a fren, i wish the best for the both of you and please get married in italy kay? fly me there to be your bridesmaid plz ❤

害怕

2011-05-03T14:35:00.001+08:00

❤

终于了解你所说的害怕，

你说，想念我的时候你会怕。。

因为想念你的我也开始害怕了。。。

你出现在脑海里的次数多了。。

所以我怕了

Me super hate EOS

2011-04-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

oh my dear vivian chin, please be conscious and know that your EOS 6 is in 2 weeks time, and can you plz focus on your studies instead of browsing through the internet and reading others' tweets for god sake? Please nerd out your mind now, i know all those trips planning is way more fun than your stupid, dull and stressful EOS 6, but if you flunk your exam, your parents will toss your head, so in order to keep your head in place so that you can go to those trips planned, plz FOCUS ON YOUR STUDIES and eyes off the laptop!! 

Gotta continue studying...nitez my peeps❤

best friends forever ❤

2011-04-26T21:39:00.001+08:00

❤ You are my bestest of the bestest fren

i've always thank god that i met you, i must have done lotsa good did in my past life that i bumped into you this life. You are the one who makes me laugh in tears and cry in happiness. I realized, being part of my life is hard as it always involves violent mood swings, occasional tears and midnight calls at 5am crying over the phone. For all the nasty stuff that i've done to you, never once in our days you give up on me, shouted at me, or screamed at me...you are always there, no matter how many times you said, i m gonna let you go if you continue giving up on yourself...But you are always there at the end of the day..i know i have been a real stupid girl recently :(. i'm sorry and THANK YOU SO MUCH, for all the times you are there for me...Seriously, THANK YOU SO MUCH, LLM!! especially that night when you rushed all the way from Monash just to give me a hug and spare me a shoulder to cry on...:) :) You are my super duper best friends till milky-way diminished!! i promise i will be there for you no matter what happened...I ❤ YOU 

ma instant mood enhanc3r

2011-04-22T17:55:00.001+08:00

❤ C.H.O.C

vivian chin needs some motivation to study, dadi chin said we can go hatyai shopping end of this month probably..love lots, dadi you the best!!

p/s: current trend of therapeutic sucks to bits

p/s/s: i need a soul vacation *wink*

bad D.R.E.A.M

2011-04-20T19:58:00.001+08:00

❤ This sucks to the core..

with all my heart, i pray. Spare me some mercy and make things easy for me kay? just this once!! i am doing my very best, it takes all my strength just to hold myself together. Need a safe deposit box to seal up the shattered pieces of my heart with no password no key. what else can i do to feel better? i cut off all the possible connection with him, i hide all the stuff which reminds me of him, thought that will make me any good...UNTIL...i woke up with tears on my face cause he appeared in the dream. :(

Oh!! my e-diary

2011-04-19T19:47:00.001+08:00

❤ love?UEST

Again, woke up at 6am having extremely down mood, reluctantly rolled off my bed to a whole pile of notes...got lx's msg which put a big smile on my face, thanks alot!! spent a few hours reading through notes, memorizing formulas (CPK!!YOUARETHEPAININTHEASS), and reading blogs. Went over to store to get myself some milk, need some mood enhancer badly...overheard two lil kids talking "哥，我们偷偷买lollipop吃要吗？" the bro answered: " 我不知道你哦，等下mumi问为什么钱少了 " awww, the younger bro stares at the lollipop quietly. LMAO!!! kids are so cute don't you think so..seeing how innocent kids are always lift up the edges of my lips :)

happy happy :) me wanna be happy :) :)

talking to the moon

2011-04-18T12:27:00.000+08:00

❤ me wan, me wan!!

me wan chocolate cream chip
me wan chocolate indulgence
me wan pistachio ice cream
me wan coco loco
me wan strawberry with whipping cream
me wan mille crepe
me wan McD fries
me wan my laughters
me wan LLM'S hugs :(

i don't wanna feel anymore

2011-04-17T06:49:00.000+08:00

❤ i remember how to pull through it..

i've always remember the bitterness from the past,

its not a good memories how come i have them all clear and strong carved in my mind,

coz thats my protection barrier,

they remind me of things i've gone tru and that i've pull through it,

everytime when i m falling apart, i will keep reminding myself,

this time isn't so bad afterall, i had experienced this..

be strong and i ll make it through again..

if only you can let your rational overpower your emotions,

things wouldn't be so hard to control, but somehow..

things always work the opposite way...

i told myself yesterday, i gotta move on..

what done is done, this is not the end of the world, its just a head start of my future...hell yea, i m suddenly so positively charged and tears aren't dropping anymore..

but did i just over-estimated myself?

i woke up 6am in the morning out of the blues, thinking about him again...

the bitterness strikes me out of nothing and all the memories came running like a movie in my mind again...

I've tried really hard this time, i tried to avoid every single trigger, but everything around me seems to remind me of him..

I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years, or just not exist, or just not be aware that you do exist, or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning--------anonymous

you're my baby ❤

2011-04-16T21:30:00.001+08:00

❤ baby, i miss you so much!!!

i miss you so much, i miss the days we slept together, even though we crap till the next morning that we left 2 hours to slip...but i still miss those days..

i know how badly you beg me not to post those photos, but i love you so much i just got to post it!! LOL...

teoh kae herng is gossiping

still gossiping

karma from gossiping, she is sick..

who's the lover??

baby dino's pillow

"plz vivian chin, i tell you better dont post up my photos"

i miss your smile and laughters so much

baby, no matter what happened, you will still have me by your side..i ll always be there to support you..yes i mean it, i m the partner in crime, so is the matter good or bad, i ll by your side... stay strong ya, remember, any obstacles in your way will only make you stronger, you will grow and learn from that...i love you baby...

see things clearer after i wipe off those tears

2011-04-15T21:06:00.001+08:00

❤ scenery behind those "fog"

sometimes i really wonder, why do i have to go to the very end and make things so ugly before i realized i should have let go from the very first..

it applies to the first time and it applies now,

why do i have to go all the way with all those enthusiastism and got a big fat cold blanket covered on me before i get my right mind..

so yea, i got the cold blanket now and it totally awaken me...

if i would to say i m totally recovered now, its a lie..but i guess i m a few steps forward now...

thanks my fren, your words strike me like a lightning bolt,

"sometimes u can do nothing when someone changes their opinion about you, just don't care and move on." - quoted from mugun

thanks for reminding me how much i love my parents and how much they love me..how stupid i get cause i even need you to remind me how much i love my parents... hell yea, they are the reason i m living and working hard for so long..its them..how can i got so blinded and forgot the reason i m living??

i have lots of goals and aims to be achieved, but ever since i fall in love, it seems that i m so blinded that i put them all aside, i didn't even notice that they seems no longer important to me... until now, when the "fog" are cleared, i can see things clearly again...

I forgot i used to believe, i always tell myself, don't ask why he is no longer yours, cause God has someone better waiting for you, its the time...you will meet that Mr. right sooner or later..

"sometimes we waste too much time to think about someone who doesn't even think about us for a second :'/" - retweeted from carmencee

so why bother? life is too short to cling on the past..i should forget the past and live the present and celebrate the future...

❤.❤.❤.❤.❤

To friends who are there when i needed you all most, really a big fat hug to all of you, i couldn't express how thankful i am to you but if you know me well, you know how glad i m to have all of you...love lots

i hope you ll read this

2011-04-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

❤ these are my last words to you

i always have lots of stuff to tell you,

but everytime talking on the phone, i got too engaged listening to you,

everytime after we hung up,

i realized I've forgot to tell you this and tell you that..

But these will be my last words to you,

if only you feel that you owe me some responsibilities,

Please do me a favour kay?

Try your very best to cut off your cigarette kay?

or at least try to smoke less,

its of your own good...

i know i kinda nag too much, but i promise this will be the last time

Ever since i felt in love with you,

My life has always been you,

you have always come first in everything,

But from today onwards, i ll start my very own life ❤

random conversation

2011-04-11T11:48:00.000+08:00

❤ this is what happened when you have ivan chin as your brother ^^

me: yay!!! i customized everything in my iphone, its now all about vivian

bro: yay!!! everything is now LAME-fied

me: =.=

❤我好喜欢你哦❤

2011-04-08T19:52:00.000+08:00

❤亲爱的，

我好喜欢你哦。。。

喜欢得我不知不觉中失去了自我。。。

每次和你谈天或谈电话，

我总爱静静的听你说话，

那是因为，我想参与我所错过属于你的过去，

慢慢的，我爱上了那温馨的声音。。。

每次和你约会或见面，

我总爱从旁仔细的看着你，

我想要把你的面容牢牢地记住，

那是因为，我不知道我们下次的约会是几时。。。

每次电话响起，

我总希望看到的来电显示会是你的名字，

那是因为，我总是在想你。。。

我会把所有你发的简讯都存好，

只因我不想失去任何一个属于我们的点滴，

哪怕只是一封短短的简讯。。。

a letter to you

2011-04-03T10:51:00.000+08:00

❤ sometimes, things arent about just black and white, there is a grey area

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if you happened to read this

2011-03-20T02:00:00.001+08:00

❤ i miss you, again

i miss your voice, its so comforting,

i miss your hug, it makes me feel so secure,

i miss your kiss on my forehead, it makes me feel so loved,

i miss your kiss on my cheek, it makes me feel so sweet,

i miss your arms, they are just so warm

i miss the way you pat my head, it makes me feel pampered

i miss the way you hold me in your arms, it makes me feel like everything's gonna be okay as long as you are around me,

it may be simple for you to say I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU, but those words never fail to melt my heart

you never fail to draw a smile on my face,

you never fail to make me laugh

There is no where in this world i rather be, when i m with you

Happy two-O birthday

2011-03-14T21:27:00.001+08:00

❤ Happy birthday to my one and only brother...

IVAN CHIN HAN YANG (ivan is just as common as vivian, accept the fact :p) 

 
pathetic anot?? i have to use your 12 years old photo to post up a happy birthday post for you??

FYI, we dont have photos taken together just because my bro hates me camwhoring and he doesn't likes to take photos to take photos with me...

okay, i noe this sounds chessy, but you noe i love you more than anything....you are my one and only brother, so yea, ntg is more important as compare to you...unless you take mumi and dadi into account..LOL..you guys are the best things ever happened to me...

i m so sorry, its like i sort of grabbed your chances and you have to undergo the horrible STPM, being in extreme stress just to make sure you score well in order to enter NUS and to get the scholarship....

Your STPM freaks me out, to be honest, you were so stressed out due to the STPM, but same thing happened here, i m so worry, is this really too much for you? did i just put you in such a painful situation?  it seems to me that i make you go through all this...you scored 10 A's1 in SPM without studying, and yes if you consider flipping thru those books as studying....and now you are studying, really studying for STPM...thank god its all over now

i understand that you aim for 4 flats and all your life, you are the straight A's scorer, put it that way, you are still a straight A's scorer, just not a 4 flatter, but you do know that dadi, mumi and me are more than proud of your results...

i m so proud of you, i can always say out loud that i have an awesome brother... okay, just don't say out loud that you have a lousy sister...

i couldn't promise you much, but what i can promise you is that, for everything you need and want, i will try my very best to give you...i might not be able to give you the best, but i will give you the best i can afford...its simple, cause you are my brother

❤ HAPPY BIRTHDAY ❤

Take this pain away

2011-03-13T15:42:00.000+08:00

❤ how i wish everything is as simple as ABC

因为你，我每天很晚才睡

我一直在等你

想和你说说话

即使是我睡着了醒来，也会莫名的拿手机看，然而...

我却始终没有看到你发给我的信息

便会带着失望入睡...

因为你、我上线（让你知道我来了）

因为你、我隐身（我只想和你一个人说话）

因为你、我的手机时不时的亮着

我去哪都带着手机

时不时的点击刷新

希望能看到你发给我的FB消息...

因为你、我的FB心情不断改变

然而你却不知道

因为你、我会莫名的生气...

因为你、我变得很矛盾

不知如何是好

因为你、我会时不时的想起我们的对话

时不时的一个人傻笑...

因为你、你的一句话可以改变我一整天的心情

因为你...

一切只因为你...

因为你、我会伤心

我会难过

我会流泪

我会生气

我会开心

我会高兴...

你曾说我"傻"

也许吧！

因为你、我傻的无可救药 ...

现在的我懂了很多

为了你

我可以放弃一切 ...

都不曾后悔...

只想告诉你

你一定要幸福快乐...

因为你...

一切都只因为你...

然而你...

却不曾懂得...

Notes cited from: This fb page

love you more than words

2011-03-08T19:15:00.001+08:00

❤ awww, i have cute parents

my dad just called and here goes the conversation:

chin dadi: how come i called you a few times and you didn't pick up the phone?

me: izit?? where got?? only once last nite...and i called back..

chin dadi: got, few days ago oso..

me: i was playing with my frens last nite and i missed the call, but i called back wat..

chin dadi: nah~~ yea you called back, but you called mumi, not me!!!few days ago oso same thing..i called you then you called back your mum...

*awww, my dad is jealous...how cute!!!*

me: LOL...i tot you 2 were together, its the same what...and calling mumi's phone is cheaper...

chin dadi: next time call me and i ll call you back..

my sweet dadi, i love you both equally!!!! you 2 are the best treasures of my life!! MUAXK!!❤

Jogoya ❤

2011-02-26T00:08:00.000+08:00

❤ my first visit to the famous Jogoya

Jogoya is having the buy 1 free 1 promotion now, just in case some of you don't know, which is freaking worth it, since their normal price is like around rm100 per pax..

i have been wanting to go jogoya like forever dy...and finally^^ *happy me*

since i got my baby canon, i ll gonna spam all my posts with loads of photos...*anyway, my skill sucks* pinky promise i m gonna improve kay?

 i don't take lamb usually, but gosh, the lamb here is awesome..and the mashed potatoes...

❤ marshie marshie mallows ❤

okay, don't ask me why there are 2 photos for marshmallows, coz they are just so freaking cute and pretty to not snap more than 1..and did i mentioned marshmallows can always melt my heart ❤

The tiramisu is my NO.1 favourite of all...i think i ate like 4 to 5 cups of them.. arghh, i miss it already!! 

That little girl is so cute, i couldn't take my eyes off her..and FYI, i m not a pedophile...i just love kids...

my diet plan for imu ball fail big time!!! i have been eating and eating all this while, not in a good mood lately, and all the vivian's-mood-enhancer are freaking fattening!!

p/s: bb is now with me, by my side physically..and i m so freaking happy...we are gonna rock the dance floor soon...just can't wait!!

comments are most welcome & click on my ads kay? loves lots ❤

Life's tough

2011-02-24T22:51:00.000+08:00

❤ only when you realize you are gasping for air

today sucks..
i m moody for no reason,
nah, not really, i m moody coz he doesn't look me into the eyes anymore..
The phone call with a friend sobbing on the other side disconnected coz my phone credit went out..like any other time please?? why now???
fine!! msn disconnected, coz the internet line has ntg else to do and think that my day isn't bad enough and its trying to make it worse by making everything goes "problem loading page" and MSN DISCONNECTED!!
so yea, big FML!!!

baby, i m so sorry, everything got disconnected!! don't push yourself so hard, everything will eventually turned out just fine..love lots

BP108 - Dodge ball competition

2011-02-23T09:52:00.001+08:00

❤ Dodge ball event by BP108

I dont usually join this kinda class event, its been my third year here and there are still alot of batchmates who i still don't know of their names (and very sorry if i tagged anyone wrongly in my photo album *bow* )...

I never regret joining this event, coz it totally rocks!!! i realized Unity can actually happens if we all work together, even in a large group like BP108 which consists of 120++ of us!! okay, this sounds kinda cheesy now!! shall stop crapping here..

Enjoy the photos, cause they took me like 5 freaking hours to edit and upload due to my ultimate-90-years-old- ah-ma-very-laggy-line...T.T

Sorry that all the pics are in tiny size, they are too many of awesome photos with awesome ppl in it and i couldn't upload all to my blog in the original size...but they are just too nice to leave behind, don't you think so? so say yay to collage style!!:)

Some photos are stolen from marcus, chyndee or yeen shuang's album...i credited those photos ya, so no plagiarism issue here..LOL

Lovely couples of BP108, sorry for some couples who are not in the pic, i have no intention in doing this until i realize we got quite a number of couple photos!! 

*drum rolling* the award goes to~~~

Its a great nite with frens, you guys are the best and i love BP108 to max!!! :)

and of coz, thanks you ming for organizing this event!!

Looking forward to more class events!! 

BP108

Next post up: Jogoya

comments are most welcome & click on my ads kay? loves lots ❤

Every cloud has a silver lining

2011-02-20T13:02:00.000+08:00

❤ new leaves are to grow as long as the plant is alive

i have been in denial stage for the past one week...i gave myself one week top, to cry and to grieve!! although friends have been telling me, this is not suppose to break you, you been through worse!! however, you don't expect me to get all okay by the next second and forget what had happened!!

So now its the time to get myself back on track, set my mind clear, do the right thing!!

Isohunt is so great that i can now watch grey's anatomy, house, CSI and private practice!! okay, how am i suppose to get-back-on-track (means get my assignment and project done) if i keep watching?

next post: dodge ball competition!!

stay tune for more^^ click on my ads kay? loves lots ❤

Photos make things eternity

2011-02-14T14:05:00.000+08:00

❤ thousand words within a snap

This is my first practical try out of my new baby to this Chinese temple which i really ~~cannot recall the name~~, oops!! never remember the name to be exact..

This place is fantastic and its like a photography heaven where you can snap to max, but giving my noob skill i still failed to get any particular shot i m happy with it..and gosh!! did i mentioned i forgot to recharge my battery..how silly can i be??

Here are a few shots to share...

comments are most welcome & click on my ads kay? loves lots ❤

autumn goodbye

2011-02-13T23:24:00.001+08:00

❤ everything has come to an end FOR GOOD

Sorry readers, wasn't in my right mind for the past few days, or week?? gosh, i would really blame that PMS for real!! but now i m back to the happy me!! the optimist vivian chin again, thanks to everyone for supporting me and being around when i need you guys...

❤.❤.❤.❤.❤

Special thanks to:

LEAN LEE MING

my 30 years old gonna be husband!! did i just spoilt your market?? okay fine, i dont care bout that!! thanks for being there, and thanks for listening to me sobbing, and did i tell you, your voice is so comforting, but i wish your shoulder was there too!! and yes, i ll allow you to slap me if the same thing happened again kay?? teehee, my 3 karma-s had passed!!! imma free man now^^

SHANE TAN

i miss you my babe, and thanks for the sms you sent me, i know you care, and i really appreciate that...

STACY NG

dear, thanks alot for being there and thanks for all the advices. rmb?? when Adrian called me that night and asked whether i am okay and i sound like i m crying...coz i m freaking touched that you even ask him to call me... you made me realize that things aren't so bad after all, coz i have you guys with me!! August is now too long to wait!!! I MISS YOU!!! 

ADRIAN EE

what should i say other than thank you?? i m so glad that i got to know you, and i m really happy for stacy for having such a great bf!! thanks for everything seriously...

CARYNE LAW

I saw your comments from the previous post!! it is very inspiring, thanks for being there!! i ll remember how i passed through those horrible dark days and things aren't so hard as compare to the previous one!! like you said " just gotta convince myself that this awful feeling is not gonna last"

KAE HERNG

bb, your phone call just now totally cheer me up!! it brought me back to the right path, you made me realize how my mind aren't thinking the right way!! when you mentioned bout I, i totally understand it..yes, big deal!!! Its just a story added to the fantastic life i m living!! when my mind was all in blank, tears rolling down non stop, gasping to breath, you made me realize, its not that bad after all..i have all the awesome ppl who cares for me and they are all around me!! 

❤.❤.❤.❤.❤

After all the thoughts, i m now in my right mind, get back to where i used to be...am really clear of what matters most right now!! i make mistakes, i m human being, i m flawed, we are. i ll start running my marathon again!!so guys, dont worry bout me kay?? i m totally fine rite now!!

GO - boys like girls

Little change of the heart

Little light in the dark
Little hope that you just might find
Your way up out of here
'Cause you've been hiding for days
Wasted and wasting away
But I got a little hope today
You'll face your fears


Yeah, I know it's not easy
I know that it's hard
Follow the lights to the city


Get up and go
Take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don't look back; just go
Take a breath, move on
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
You could spend your whole life holding on


Believe the tunnel can end
Believe your body can mend
Yeah, I know you can make it through
'Cause I believe in you
So let's go put up a fight
Let's go make everything all right
Go on take a shot
Go give it all you got


Oh, yeah, I know it's not easy
I know that it's hard
No, it's not always pretty


Get up and go
Take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don't look back; just go
Take a breath, move on
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
You could spend your whole life holding on


Don't wanna wake up to the telephone ring
Are you sitting down?
I need to tell you something
Enough is enough
You can stop waiting to breathe
And don't wait up for me


Get up and go
Take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don't look back; just go
Take a breath, move on
Or you could spend your whole life holding on


Get up and go
Take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don't look back; just go
Take a breath, move on
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
You could spend your whole life holding on
Don't spend your whole life holding on

  

remind me of how pretty fireworks are, plz?

2011-02-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

❤ when life gives you lemon?

here's the saying, when life gives you lemon, turn it into lemonade. i m an optimist i assure you, a real big one...but can life have some mercy on me and stop throwing me hard questions...its harder and harder as time goes by..

whenever i m thinking...

okay fine, vivian chin, get over it...this is the worst...what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!! if you survived the worst, you will be stronger!!!

whenever i get over something i tot its the worst and here comes the worse of the worst!! so how??i m tired

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i see grey sky through the window

2011-02-10T14:39:00.001+08:00

❤ 天灰 humming the playerz

我的天空今天有点灰，

我的心是个落叶的季节。

eye to eye? but we aren't face to face

2011-02-05T11:36:00.000+08:00

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